I wish for the strength to gather up everything I've ever invested, and walk away.
quietly, unceremoniously, like I was never there.
I want to be able to find a way around this. I want to give myself a chance to get used to it. I want to last long enough for it to lose its sting. like it never happened.
till then, I wish for the strength to survive this. every day I try to reason it away. it's not a loss. I never had you.